on friday we went in for a check up and had another ultrasound done as well. we got mostly good news, and a little bit of news that could potentially suck. let me start by saying about a week and a half before the appointment i went to the gym for routine number three, which is legs. i did some squats with a barbell and 30 pounds added on. although i hadn't done squats since i'd gotten pregnant, this was twenty pounds less than i was used to doing, and i did 3 sets of 10, no sweat; didn't feel like i was straining at all. (i had only been skipping them because it was usually occupied when i got there.) i also did another kind of squat which i hadn't done in awhile, with just twenty pounds or so, then some other leg stuff that i usually do. well, the next 2 days i could barely walk. i had no idea why i was so sore. and the scariest part was the next morning. i had a couple drops of blood when i woke up. i was really worried about this, even though i'd already read a lot about all the different things it can mean, and how it's usually no big deal if it's just a little (which it was) and i had no pain (which i didn't). i even checked online about doing squats during pregnancy, and everything was saying that it was actually a
great idea. so i called my mom and my midwife and they said to just keep an eye on it, and to definitely not do those squats anymore. (don't have to tell me twice) so i was quite pleased when the day of our check up finally arrived and we got to see our little guy dancing around again. he looked healthy as could be, so i was quite relieved. however, my midwife took a close look at the screen and said it looks like my placenta may have attached a little low (which could explain that bleeding). in less than 10% of cases, this does not end up fixing itself as everything moves up and out in the next 2 trimesters, and when that happens you end up with placenta previa. that would mean the area where the placenta attached is covering the cervix, which would mean no natural birth for me. :( instead, it would mean a hospital, searching for a doctor i like, tons of medicine and interventions, a c-section, and possibly my entire birth plan going out the window if i don't find the right doctor/hospital. i wouldn't be able to bond with my baby right away, they would do all sorts of tests on it, breastfeeding would be delayed, they would cut the cord immediately...all these things i did so much research on for so long and feel so strongly opposed to. so, naturally, i was pretty upset with this news. but i'm trying not to let it get me down. in most cases the situation corrects itself, and even if it doesn't, the baby is still healthy, and that's priority number 1.
here are the three beautiful pictures we got this time:
this is him facing us. a little creepy, but cute.
this is him laying on his back. he kept putting his hand up to his mouth and it really looked like he was sucking his thumb! (which i did read they can do at this point)
this one is my favorite. he is facing down, back arched, arms out, and i swear he is doing a heel click! he looked like a little frog in there. he was squirming in this position for a good minute, and it was hilarious. he's just like his dad:
this is him facing us. a little creepy, but cute.
this is him laying on his back. he kept putting his hand up to his mouth and it really looked like he was sucking his thumb! (which i did read they can do at this point)
this one is my favorite. he is facing down, back arched, arms out, and i swear he is doing a heel click! he looked like a little frog in there. he was squirming in this position for a good minute, and it was hilarious. he's just like his dad:
very suiting for halloween! =) u arehandling this well dear! im sure u didnt for like 20min ...but life happens! like u said the most important part is having a healthy baby. i agree with a lot of what ur research showed, but im sure u know that not all hospitals are terrible and there are a lot of great docs...u just gotta work at it a lil'. i wish you the best of luck in the next couple wks! it'll will probably resolve itsself - cause you know ...its a superhero growing in there!
ReplyDeleteAfter my natural birth I was so exhausted, I didn't really get to bond right away. Also i was so spent i don't think my attempt at breastfeeding right away was working and i let the hospital give me nipple shields to use (which if you read up on you know is pretty much the worst thing you can do if your baby won't latch). Really, after 24 hours of labor and 5 hours of pushing, when she finally came out i didn't even really want to see her. I was just happy to be done with all of it. I would see these women who had had epidurals being fresh and not exhausted when their baby comes. Able to bond with them right away. Long story short, I did everything according to my birthplan, and things still didn't end up like I expected...and that's sooo ok. The one thing i learned from my natural birth is that however the baby gets in your arms is the right way. and truth be told, i didn't feel connected with Delilah at all for almost two months (a dirty secret i was so ashamed of) but when the parent-child bond did come, it was just as strong, and now I understand when people say they would die for their kids.
ReplyDeleteMy point is, while it's good to have a birth plan, it's also important to realize that childbirth and parenting are messy and unpredictable. Being flexible helps you not feel like a failure when things don't go your way. And there are certain advantages to having a baby in the hospital (a load of nurses to help you out!)I know this is scary and sad for you, but you will have a happy healthy baby, no matter what route he takes to get here. hang in there! if you want to talk call me!
Thanks for your support ladies :)
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