i just put the handles back on the furniture today after spray painting them silver. and that giraffe is in the dryer. once he comes out lookin all shiny and new, i'll hang him up and take a new picture of him and the dresser and add that on here. :)
and here are some more ballooning belly pictures:
holy cow! last night was the first night i really felt *HUGE*. i looked at it in the mirror and i thought, wow, that sucker really sticks out there doesn't it? i can't believe we're 3/4s of the way there! it has felt so far like an eternity, and now that i can see the horizon i feel like it's coming so soon! but in reality i guess 25% is still quite a large chunk. but since it's the last 25% i suppose there's really no telling just how quickly it may pass. we just might get caught up in a whirlwind of things to do and places to be and then come out of that tornado with a baby in our arms.
there is a lot ahead of us in the next couple of months. still so many things to get prepared. we had our first hypnobirthing class last wednesday. it was a great experience and made me look forward to the rest of them. it seemed like exactly what i was looking for, and the other people in the class seem very nice. i also have a project i have been putting off for the time when i won't be working anymore. (and unfortunately with the type of job i have that will be a lot sooner than i would like.) jason's mom made each of her three babies an adorable stuffed elephant and i would really love to carry on that tradition. i already have the pattern and the material, now i just need to get to work on it. :) another thing i would really like to do in about a month or so is make a video for samson. i like the idea of writing him a letter that he can read when he gets older, but i feel like a video would capture things so much more accurately. i want a way to commemorate this moment where everything is ahead of us. a way to express all the things i'm wishing for him, all the things i want to be for him, and all the things i want him to be for himself. i feel like it might help me keep the big picture in focus, and if nothing else he'll be able to watch it when he's feeling lost, and it will remind him that we will always be by his side, and that we loved the heck out of him before we even met.
this experience has been nothing but amazing so far, and i'm so excited for all that lies ahead. lately jason and i keep looking at each other and saying, pretty soon there will be a baby right here. we can't help but constantly imagine how whatever meaningless task we're doing at that moment will be completely different in the future, with just the addition of a little bean in our arms. for quite some time now i have had this switch in my thinking--my belly is no longer "my belly"; it's just samson. it no longer belongs to me, and i love that feeling. we also can't stop wondering what he's going to look like. such a mystery! what a moment that will be when we first see his face. i'm really looking forward to this test of strength and courage i have coming. i think i will learn a lot about myself through that experience, and i hope it will have a positive outcome on the way i see myself.
well, thanks for reading my ramblings. i mainly write on here so that i will have something to look back at to relive this, and compare it to things in the future, so it really makes me smile when other people get a kick out of it as well.
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